Last night I curled up in my bed and cried into my pillows until I was too tired to think. Life felt hard, overwhelming, my day was a carnival ride of first-timer mistakes and unknowns. I spent hours riding highs and lows. Wheel-spinning, head-banging, minutes fumble-fucking my way through new assignments. Researching, writing, pacing, long-staring … Continue reading Trust that it’s enough.
Have you made an Energy Audit list lately? If you’re feeling depleted, disconnected, or resentful — then an Energy Audit list can help. You’ll discover what is leaching your energy, what patterns or obligations are no longer serving you. You’ll also clarify what types of activities, interactions, and habits support your finite energy and nurture … Continue reading Time. Energy. Clarity.
Mia was feeling tired, overworked, and out of sync with her needs and desires. She worked a full-time job, raised 3 kids, and whatever time she had left— she put towards building her personal business that she intended to replace her day job with soon. She longed for vitality, freedom, and deep connections. She sat … Continue reading You Have the Power to Choose
I love words. And yet sometimes I fail with them. Sometimes I struggle for the language to express my feelings or needs. Other times I'm sure I’ve got the words right but the person I’m trying to communicate with is unable to hear them. Their mind is reeling or their emotions are raging and there … Continue reading Ways to say stuff when words fail
Maybe your art is a meal, or a space, or a business, or a silent intention that ushers love and peace out to the world. Maybe your art takes up physical space in this world. Maybe it does not. One is not more real or more important. We need all the art. That’s why we … Continue reading No art is too small. No art is pointless.
I saw it drop down from the roof of the car into the open driver side window I held my breath, I hoped you wouldn’t notice it. You pulled into the suicide lane A car pulled up behind you. Then you saw the spider. You did not go. You began trying to blow it out … Continue reading Remorseful
Why does setting goals and getting things done looks so different for Solar and Lunar focused individuals? We all embody both a Solar and Lunar self or side. However, one side in particular may take the spotlight at different times or may dominate our energy body overall. The Solar and Lunar selves can work in … Continue reading Focuse. Productivity. Momentum.
I long to run through crooked paths in the deep green forests of my mind and stop at some lovely clearing to catch my breath and wait... for all the pieces of myself to arrive.
No more comparing myself to others - I live by the means of my own passion and power and unique offerings. No more forcing (fast) solutions - I delight in slow deliberate growth. No more waiting to fill my tank until it’s empty - Keep my cup full and overflowing so I can pour into … Continue reading The No More List
I wrote this debut article (below) for the Northern Light Newspaper 8 years ago. My job was to write a little opinion column series entitled Take Five. I was excited to finally have an opportunity to write a column! And I was terrified. I was ready! And I was not ready… The 5 B’s of … Continue reading Publish it anyway
Ahh… The smell of mud, the sound of boots treading the earth, the magical shinny world that lives in the mirror of a puddle. But first…. You should know that usually when I start out on a walk, my back is a bit tense, my mind is muddled with brain noise and questions. "How will … Continue reading Have you tried an exploratory jaunt?
That is the title of My 7 year old sons latest TikTok video. Yea he just checked off “make TikTok video” from his daily checklist. It appears Boaz has succumb to my overly ambitious daily checklist ritual. And is kind of doing it better than me. He likes to add things to his daily list … Continue reading Dear Weird Headed Weirdos
Friends! This is an event that your heart would hate to miss. I've been attending Generation Circle's virtual storytelling event on Monday evenings. And this is a list of things that have happened to me during its hour-ish gathering: 1. I heard something that reassured me that I can and should reconsider what is mine … Continue reading You’re invited to this free heart-happy storytelling event – Pants are optional
Sometimes I’m trying so hard to do a thing. And I think that because I’m trying so hard at it that I know what I’m trying to do. But really what is happening is I’m trying to drive towards a destination that I have not clearly marked on the map. This happens when I have … Continue reading A Cure for Aimless Ambition
I am a cosmic ambassadorI help represent the cycle of thingsLike the moon, my face and moodChange ever so slightly each day I wax and waneAnd wax and waneIt is simple yet I still find it strange I can bring you the light I catch along the wayI can bear the dark mysteries and shadows … Continue reading I am a woman and a cosmic ambassador
I often think about all the years I spent making the chore of laundry harder than it needed to be and wishing my family and I were born into a nudist colony so I would not have to deal with it. These days I have transformed my disdain for laundry into a well-loved ritual and … Continue reading 5 Radical Ways to Experience Laundry Day Bliss
Nature’s tenacity, though disruptive at times, is also truly life-giving. A strong pulsed continuum. This morning I lay in bed too long and watched reluctance drag at the feet of my tired spirit. I want to stay where I am. Not go back to the wakeful world, not back to an uncertain reality. Then I … Continue reading This Tenacity
1. The rush of aliveness that comes with my spring phase. 2. Chosen silence. 3. I’m excited to breath deeply and push all the passion bubbling up inside me through my veins and finger tips and toes and beyond. 4. I’m excited about the possibilities a day does bring. The blessings and gratitude and understanding … Continue reading Gratitude 1/1/20
I know I desire a slow form of living this year. So that I can notice more and pay tribute to more and let myself flow. I’m learning what slows me and delights me. Quietude. Sometimes writing my way through noisy storms in my mind. Some times just sitting, watching, breathing. I want to pause … Continue reading Flow Rituals
A couple of friends and I recently added a Wins Celebration Day to our monthly calendars. Around the time of the Full moon we gather, have dinner, and share with each other our wins from the previous cycle. We talk about blocks we overcame, goals we reached, things we are working toward. We discuss the … Continue reading What are Your Wins?
Give me that song that makes you feel balmy.Give me that prayer that brings you peace.Give me that recipe, that tastes like comfort and works like a remedy.Give me the art you made last week. Give me the worn-out copy of that book you love.Give me the old picture of us that you found.Give me … Continue reading Gifts
Meow! If you love cats and self empowerment. Steal these memes and share them, make them your screen savor, add them to your vision board, draw a replica for an art project, start a catalution! I meme you, Kenzie
Don’t force it.Just enjoy the build up.So it’s slow.Let it be slow.Let your breath and limbs relish in its tension.Let trust envelop the philosophers in your mind.Let it wax.Let it wane too.It will come back around. Press into it.Appreciate its pulp.The sweet elusive magic of its essence.Explore its subtle edges.That bleed like water-color into the … Continue reading Delight in slow deliberate growth.
I Know contentment.Reverence.Wonder. I Know the powerof my varied corners and sides.I Know they are just right.They are serving me. I Know patience.I Know its waves of anticipationalso, its warm incubation. I Know my Source.It’s endless flowing essence. Its assurance, it’s ability, and delight. I know. Because I want to. Ps. Here's a similar piece … Continue reading Because I want to
Sometimes I wish I were different already.That I could untie the knots in my mind, on demand.Make my limbs reach more readily for the love that I crave. But there’s this ravine it seems, between me and the creature I wish to be.There’s some big long journey involved? ...Or is there?Is that just an excuse, … Continue reading And now, move.
Tonight I drove home from work in a snow storm. The world looking like a Lite-Brite smeared behind cold glass. The snow flakes just pouring down under street lights in every direction. Sugar rain from an endless source. And I thought to myself...“Abundance.” And then I felt that each snowflake that landed on my car … Continue reading All I need.
One day I may lead a Buti yoga session, or a cardio-quicky class, or offer a shower-dance fitness tutorial... One day I may finally regularly attend a fitness class at the Y or that hot new yoga studio I've been meaning to check out. One day I may hire a fun and affordable personal trainer. … Continue reading The “Anywhere I Can Get it” Fitness Plan
Something really special has happened the last few evenings. My kids and I have discovered a new evening ritual. We call it Journal Time. Normally the time after dinner and before bed is designated for quiet time. We'll play cards, listen to stories, read books, sip hot tea, or as of late, just sit in … Continue reading Journaling is Like a Superpower.
Just remember the infinite-tality of this point! Remember how it fed you everything you needed and wanted. Remember how sacred the words that trace a landing… For all the love you need, For all the compassion and grace you need, For all the tenderness and connection you need. Do not panic and go looking for … Continue reading infinity sign
Let’s just dive right in today, because I’m sick and have less energy to write a creative introduction on being a sick person, who feels gross and more importantly looks gross. Attempt to get better, don’t just whine about being sick. Attempt to get better as soon as you notice your symptoms and don’t just … Continue reading 5 Ways to be Sick Without Grossing Everyone Out
May it be here, In this life that screams “Mom, Mom, Mom!” In the rushing breeze And noisy trees. May it be here, In my sweat, In my running shoes, In the storm that could soak us. May it be here, Between bursts of rationality, Probing themes of time and energy. May it be here, … Continue reading may it be here
I feel like the leaf outside. Blowing everywhere but not settling, I can’t figure out how to settle. I can't figure out if I'm just supposed to go along for the ride It seems lazy and unproductive. It feels right but it seems wrong And I feel like the moon. New and hungry for my … Continue reading fall
* Found this poem I wrote in High School while I was looking for old material for a poetry contest. Thought I’d share it. Since it’s one of the only comical poems I’ve ever written... We had spoken before, just a short “Hello, Goodbye.” He was kind of jumpy, but an interesting guy. It wasn’t really … Continue reading curious
There's this story. Underneath every thought I have, every breath, just waiting, restlessly, passionately to be real. It's gripping. Keeps trying to hold me. And kiss me. And give me pleasure. And security. So there. I said it. It's like this story's got a mind of its own but the same soul as me. It's … Continue reading story
1. I know what it’s like to have different colored days 2. I know the wash of the moon as it travels on its monthly journey 3. I know the smell of fear 4. And the whisper of faith 5. I know what it’s like to love like the Moon loves the sea, it can … Continue reading 30 things I know
I am the sum of many parts Dreams Schemes Curiosity Habits Unfinished starts Darkness Light Lessons Lies Microcosmic might.. I am all the aspects of life, random or otherwise that filled the space and time that was before this. I am an effect of a Greater cause. I am a factor in Universal law. And … Continue reading ancient heart
We all have to get up sometime. Some days it’s easier than others. We wake up we stumble through the house like Zombies to the shrine our coffee pot lives on or the instant water heater and stacks of black tea. The caffeine kiss bringing us back to life like “true-loves “ lips. Then there … Continue reading 5 Ways to Wake up Without Caffeine
We all know those people that just love to argue, love to get heated and "get their feelings hurt". I might sound insensitive, but no! The insensitive thing would be to ignore that these people exist and that their feelings matter. First of all, if you find yourself in a situation with this sort of … Continue reading 5 Ways to End an Argument